Florinef flu: FAIL

The same thing happened when I tried Florinef again, even at a tiny dose. Felt great for a few days, felt OK for a day but didn’t pee hardly at all, and then felt horrible on day 5. I gained 4 lb overnight (expected, because of the no-peeing thing the day before) and felt like I had the flu and itched. My joints ached and I had body aches like with the flu, I felt exhausted, and I itched all over, including having a scratch in my throat that kept making me cough like crazy. I took some Vistaril and felt a little better. I don’t think it’s possible to be allergic to a steroid, nor to become allergic to one after 5 days exactly, but there you go. It seems safe to say this is not the drug for me.

Can I POSSIBLY take ANY drug and have a normal reaction to it…either I react extremely to a tiny dose, or I need a horse-sized dose for said drug to affect me at all. I’m not right, pharmacologically.

Today I am having a bad day so far and I just got up; I had to pry myself out of bed and am so tired I am having my “too tired to function” thought processes. Those go like this: I could call in sick. I could call in dead. I could go back to bed for 28 minutes before I absolutely have to be up. I could skip my shower and sleep another 15 minutes. I could rearrange my schedule to start work later. I could just go back to bed and put my phone on Do Not Disturb because who cares if I get fired, I’m never going to be able to work anyway. Yet here I sit, not going back to bed.

The dizziness and falling parts of POTS suck for sure, but the fatigue is what really gets me. It’s what motivated me to find out what is WRONG with me. I wish I could explain this fatigue, because before I experienced it I thought “fatigue” just meant really tired. It is WAY worse than that. It’s both mental and physical; it’s having your brain refuse to handle simple thought processes and suspecting you really may be unable to get up. And when you do you almost wish you hadn’t because you feel. So. Exhausted. I can’t concentrate on anything when I’m feeling this way, and I hate the feeling. One time I took Phenergan and couldn’t really wake up for 32 hours, and it’s similar to that feeling, just like fighting off being drugged.

I’ve learned that when I feel this tired I need to rest. If I don’t it will get worse. I run the risk of ending up in bed unable to move even if I’m able to motivate myself to try it. Problem is, I’m trying to lead a normal life so I have a 50+-hour a week job for which if I miss a day there’s no one else to do my job, so I have to double up when I get back. It’s not good at all to miss a day. So just as I’m doing today, I push myself. maybe I’ll be all right tomorrow and maybe I won’t.

Sometimes I get away with ignoring my symptoms and proceeding anyway: usually I don’t fall when I feel like I might. Usually I’m able to get through my day when I feel tired like I do right now. When I do end up on the floor or in bed I castigate myself. “You KNEW you were having a bad day and should have paid attention!” Well, that’s true, but if I coddled every single symptom I would never do anything.

Very frustrating.

2 thoughts on “Florinef flu: FAIL

  1. The fatigue can’t be explained to others, I think… Have you tried Mestinon for it? I can’t even get out of bed without it…

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